finally ... I think.

today...

Kid 1: um.... Mrs P?
Me: Yes, Kid 1?
Kid 1: how come you know everything?
What I actually said: No-one knows everything, Kid 1.
(What I thought: mwahahahahahahah - finally someone recognises that I am a supreme being!)
Kid 1: You know more than me.
Me: Well I am older than you so I've learnt more stuff.
Kid 1: Yeah, that's true. Much older.

aaaaand down to earth with a thump!

catch-up and plans...

It has been sooo long! I keep having ideas about changing the type of blog this is - changing the posts I write. Oh so many plans!

We did eventually find the perfect flat to buy. It was such a great find (we had wonderful estate agents who phoned us when we were on holiday in Zimbabwe in April!) and we love it. We've lived here for 3 months and it's still developing but it's ours and as far as we're concerned it's perfect. I'll post photos when we're all done making it extra beautiful!

And school continues to be a pain. It's such a weird place to be mentally. I LOVE teaching, I love the kids I teach (same class as last year - who make me laugh and frustrated every day! - not that they see the frustration...all the time....), I love the people I work with. I am just tired, sick to death, of being, essentially, bullied by our headmistress. Initially I thought it was just me being over sensitive, which I know I am prone to do, but most of the other staff have commented on it. Some are braver than me and actually stick up for me in staff meetings. I'm not the only unhappy one. Our wonderful Superman Caretaker has finally had enough too - handed in his resignation and decided he couldn't even serve out his notice and left. It's amazing how much being bullied dents your opinion of yourself. I find I have turned from being a creative, spontaneous teacher to questioning a lot of what I used to do naturally. Now I've moved classrooms and am in the room in the attic, which is an extra flight of stairs if She wants to come and find me - which She is doing less now. Especially after I casually, and sweetly, commented on her being rather puffed when she came into my room....
It reiterates over and over again why teachers should NEVER have favourites, and why bullying is such an awful thing.

but onwards -
it's been half term and wow do I love half term. It's exactly what I need after a crazy busy, stressful start to the year. The academic pushing I need to do with my kiddies is huge - seeing as in 8-10 months they'll all be writing entrance exams to their high schools. It's hard work - even more so as these little ones are not hugely academic. They love working - yes really- and they love it when I tell them they've done so well but it's exhausting for them (and me!)
Half term always goes the same way:
I promise myself I'll work hard and get all my planning done, reports written, displays designed and prepared..... and only after that will I read, sew, knit etc.
Instead... I sleep for 2 days, then read for 2 days, then work a bit, feel guilty that I didn't start earlier..... etc.
This year, though, I feel no guilt at all. None!
I've slept, read 2 of the next books of the Game of Thrones (love!), made curtains for the flat, done a spring clean, taken the old lady across the hall for an afternoon tea, started making my first quilt, almost finished crocheting a baby blanket for a friend who is due to pop in 3 weeks, done some baking that actually worked (!!!), made some delicious soups for the freezer for when things get colder, spent waaaay too much time on Pinterest and drawn up plans for a tote bag I want to make myself, a scarf I want to knit myself and 2 more baby blankets for soon to be born nephews (I love my nephews. 2 little ones so far and 2 on the way. Lucky lucky me!), and planned something sweet for my beautiful niece for Christmas. Also booked the car in for a service tomorrow.
wow - I've actually been quite efficient.
and to top things off, today I started writing my reports. And I've had an awesome idea for a Writing display in my classroom. Genius!

And wow am I looking forward to Christmas. Already.

April....

Yay - I love April. I love the warm in the UK, the cool and the end of the rains in Zimbabwe.
I love the spring here - flowers, new green leaves, longer evenings.
And I love the promise of cool evenings after a hot day in Zimbabwe. I love the sun coming up a fraction later so I wake to the sound of birds in the garden.

April. *contented sigh*
and this year I get to experience it in both places thanks to A.

http://chutney-lid.blogspot.co.uk/2010/04/april.html

being thankful

so I've become rather negative recently - life has, in general, really got me down and I find I've lost my focus. I used to love that I was a more positive person but that seems to have gone. and so I am going to take special care to keep track of the Good Things that happen. okay so school is really hard work - but that's not all there is to life. so ... my positive diary starts today.

Friday - my class made amazing snowmen in the field - in colour! it was so much fun that actually the getting into trouble bit was totally worth it. And I'd do it again. We trampled snow and wrote our names with food colouring. And it was good!
Saturday - we had coffee at starbucks between viewings for flats. we had a chilled out day and spend time together. My blanket for us is coming on nicely.
Sunday - my lovely husband has made me countless cups of tea, and we went to see The Vow (lovely movie) and now we're home. And a delicious plan has been made with an old school friend who I love seeing.

And I am married to the man of my dreams.

oh the plans, the plans

As seems to be the case with most things these days - all the plans are out the window. Again.
I have this irritating habit of having Plans about everything - when we'll buy a house, have kids... etcetcetc. It's even down to planning months in advance about when I'll get the carpet cleaner out and blitz the carpets. (ironically my social life and my work desk are the other end of the spectrum - complete chaos!)

so.... the Plans About House Buying have been thrown out many times. But now A and I have actually had enough and we are going to buy a place soon come hell or high water. It's quite nice that we're both so into it and there are, at the moment, three potential places which is really promising. It's also a relief because one of our friends is threatening us with putting us on Location Location.

and so onto Plans About Having Kids.... and here is where the plans left the building. Skip through doctors appointment, tomorrow on to blood tests and ultra sounds..... and perhaps having children doesn't sound so eminent any more. In fact it's pretty much definite that it all does Not Sound Promising.

so perhaps I'll just have to accept the job promotion and get on with teaching a new year group and heading towards Key Stage Co-ordinator and General Destroyer of Forests due to paperwork.

and stop snivelling for goodness sake!
thankfully I have an awesome husband who hugs and pours wine. At least I can still drink wine.

Today's Moment of Insanity

The children in my class finally realised that the mother-helper, who comes and listens to readers on Monday mornings, and her daughter have different surnames, even though her parents are married.
I explained that now it's not always compulsory for women to change their surnames when they get married, and that it's down to each individual's personal choice.

me: Like, for instance, when I got married I could have kept my childhood surname and you'd be calling me Ms Mayger, but instead I made the decision to change my surname to the same as my husband's.
kid: So what are you called now?

*thunk*